Hello. You know how when something is consistently on your mind you momentarily forget about it? It’s such a strange feeling. I woke up yesterday, listened to a podcast while mowing the lawn, got a sandwich from the deli, and went to work out. Got home and watched the new episode of super. I went to the restroom and realized, “oh yeah, everything is pointless.” There was a whole day where I forgot about my bizarre existential crisis, if you could call it that. An entire day where I just existed without really thinking about it. It’s as if it was simply ingrained into my head to the point where I just forgot that it was there. Like a stain on the wall you are always used to seeing, until you look at it one day and think “oh yeah that’s there”. It was such an odd feeling. It wasn’t happy, but it wasn’t sad. Is this what life is like when you just kind of stop caring about it all. It’s such a strange feeling. Just a thought I had. Thanks for listening if you are.
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I think that’s acceptance
It happened to me many times even for more than one day. But once I recalled all memories and thoughts I’m back to reality pointless in my view. Or just there was nothing stressful that day. Especially if I’m around people or at work. Focusing on something more important. Sometimes I want to do something fun or just listen some positive music than I’m thinking what’s the point? This is temporary and going to end anyway and it doesn’t matter. That I’m gonna do it anyway and what’s the matter of happiness. Guess I’m forcing myself to be happy.
I get to this when I’m tired mentally and feel I can do nothin about my life. I put all my efforts and reap no benefit, it just doesn’t stop there – the cycle repeats. I lose hope and understand that no matter what I do it’s gon screwup somehow and forget the bullshit involuntarily.