No return

I must have given my thighs and stomach over 50 cuts but it did nothing.  I didn’t even pass out.  I wish I wasn’t so fucking impregnable in that way!  I felt sleepy right after I did it, though that eventually went away.  Why did I feel sleepy?  Is that bad?  How did I not pass out?  I am giving up.  I have been wanting to go all out cutting myself so I did today but I didn’t even get shaky or pass out.  What the hell?!  Can’t go on.  Can’t live another goddamn day.  I would ask for help, but it’s useless.  I’m past the point of no return.