Medication and Afterthoughts

Hello. So my last post was about my first therapy session I had and since then I’ve been thinking about it and everything that has happened recently. So I’ve been on medication since Tuesday, but I’m already feeling minor side effect. Mind you they have me on the lowest dosage possible and it’s been less than a week. I’m getting the normal stomach ache during the day and head ache when I wake up. Other than that it’s just fine. I haven’t felt worse mentally like some people have warned me, but I don’t feel that particularly great either. I guess that since it’s such a low dosage I shouldn’t feel anything yet. Which brings me to my next topic. I was concerned with actually getting the appointment set up and possible getting on medication, that I didn’t think about what it would actually do. I’ve heard that if just makes it easier for you to get out of that mood and stimulates your mind, but I’ve also heard it makes you feel a bit light headed and kind of out of it. I’m not sure what I wanted from this, but what exactly does the medication even do? What does it feel like to be on anti depressants as opposed to how one normally feels. I guess I was so concerned with trying to escape that mindset that I just jumped into it without thinking. Another thing I neglected to talk about is that during my session the doctor invited my dad in to talk to him. I never tell my parents anything and prefer to keep to myself, but I didn’t oppose letting him in. I’m at the point where I’ll just do whatever they tell me really. He told him how suicidal I am. I never told them. I can already see how differently they are starting to treat me. Like I’m delicate. I hate that. Maybe it’s not that different. They kind of already treated me like that. Kind of. That’s all for today. Thanks for listening if you are.