Fear and relief. Fear not because I was doing it, fear because of how mad my at the time bf, now ex would be with the fact he’d be the one who would have to call the police and clean up whatever mess I’d leave behind. Relief because I’d finally be free. That was about a month and a half ago, note, do more research on rope strength and how to tie, note two, pills don’t work on me no matter how many i take they don’t even make me sick they simply make me sleep for hours.
Imagine a room full of mimes that are wandering around and getting into silent arguments with each other under a strobe light. That seems close. I dunno how you’d categorize that, though.
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Fear and relief. Fear not because I was doing it, fear because of how mad my at the time bf, now ex would be with the fact he’d be the one who would have to call the police and clean up whatever mess I’d leave behind. Relief because I’d finally be free. That was about a month and a half ago, note, do more research on rope strength and how to tie, note two, pills don’t work on me no matter how many i take they don’t even make me sick they simply make me sleep for hours.
All of them, but more of excitement. Now the only thing I feel is I can’t wait for that day kind of feeling, even if it’s in a few days to come.
Imagine a room full of mimes that are wandering around and getting into silent arguments with each other under a strobe light. That seems close. I dunno how you’d categorize that, though.
The problem is that I couldn’t envisage it actually really happening in mind. I think I can now though…
Resolve.
Giddy with excitement at the thought achieving a dream so long in the coming. Utter relief that all pain already seemed over with.
Calm and relief.