It’s better I think?

So I talked to the psychiatrist. The lack of Effexor caused the chills and cold sweat and the Abilify caused the restlessness. He called it Akathisia. He gave me pills for that and told me to stop taking the ablilify. I still feel a bit restless though. At least now I can sit down and type this. I can never tell if the side effects are from the medication or just in my head. I’m going to be leaving soon. Highschool is almost over and college awaits. I always say that I want to start over, but now I’m not so sure. I have a feeling I will just fall into the same place all over again. I don’t want to fall for someone again. I hated the feeling of being trapped. I don’t even know if those sort of feelings are real any ways. This is a stupid subject. I hate this topic but it always weighs on my head. I wish I could just take it out of my head and never deal with it. Messing with that sort of stuff is like dumping gunpowder into a trashcan fire. It’s dangerous considering my defects. Might make me lose my head. Best I never have something like what the others have. Otherwise it might turn out all right.