then you would have never thought this, you wouldn’t exist, there wouldn’t be you, there would be space. you wouldn’t be conscious, or awake, because you weren’t alive, you didn’t exist. there would be no peace, but nothing. absolutely nothing. so whats worse, living in pain, or dying in nothing? at least in life we are aware, we can dream, and there is a chance that it will get better, right?
Unfortunately, there is not a good way to die- no legal painless guaranteed quick method available for one to get our hands on. 99% of all avail methods fail. so i am forced to suffer.
. . . but in this, all this nothing, there would also be no awareness of nothing, which, to me, is ideal. I never existed and there is no awareness of having missed out on anything. There is – Nothing.
I don’t experience peace so it doesn’t really matter, death will only take the bad away from me because there is no damn good I experience, I don’t have love, joy, happiness, peace, all I have is suffering, anger, hatred, pain, envy, jealousy, rage, sadness, guilt, regret, agony and any other bad thing you can think of. Life NEEDS to end for me I will not live another god damned year of existence.
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then you would have never thought this, you wouldn’t exist, there wouldn’t be you, there would be space. you wouldn’t be conscious, or awake, because you weren’t alive, you didn’t exist. there would be no peace, but nothing. absolutely nothing. so whats worse, living in pain, or dying in nothing? at least in life we are aware, we can dream, and there is a chance that it will get better, right?
I’d rather not have ever existed.
I get it, but you do, so now what?
Unfortunately, there is not a good way to die- no legal painless guaranteed quick method available for one to get our hands on. 99% of all avail methods fail. so i am forced to suffer.
That is what happens now. Eternal suffering.
. . . but in this, all this nothing, there would also be no awareness of nothing, which, to me, is ideal. I never existed and there is no awareness of having missed out on anything. There is – Nothing.
This was a reply to @winter.
Right. There is no pain, no suffering, no shame, no guilt, no nothing. To never have existed. I am fine with that.
I don’t experience peace so it doesn’t really matter, death will only take the bad away from me because there is no damn good I experience, I don’t have love, joy, happiness, peace, all I have is suffering, anger, hatred, pain, envy, jealousy, rage, sadness, guilt, regret, agony and any other bad thing you can think of. Life NEEDS to end for me I will not live another god damned year of existence.