It’s 5 til noon, the sun is starting to come out & the cooling breeze passes through my room
yet I lay here on what looks to be the start of a beautiful day & question whether my life is worth living any longer
Do you know the feeling, of being betrayed? Feeling as if your heart has been ripped out of your chest? The overwhelming thoughts filling my head & pouring out as my tears run down my face.
I continue to question why did this happen to me? Why wasn’t I good enough? & What did I do to deserve this hurt & suffering? I would never wish upon on anyone.
To love and be loved- only to find out it was all a lie. A man, no a boy in a mans body & voice. Wearer of many masks. Spoke in many tongues, deceiving and charming. A fraud.
Why? Why did you do this to me? Why me? After everything I’ve done.. you continued to hurt me.
Now I wish for nothing more than for the breath in my lungs to cease and my mind to find peace. I longed for the day you’d love me the same, I long for the day I am no longer alive, relieved that of my pain..
on what looks to be the start of a beautiful day.
Syotos-
1 comment
I read what you wrote and I do relate to the betrayal. But it’s not about us being not good enough. I believe it’s us not believing or understanding when we start to be treated badly. It hurts to have the heart ripped out, and yet in the long run we are better off without these people. And we must learn to protect ourselves in future.