You Sit and Watch as Your Own World Crumbles

You only have yourself to blame after all. You go back and forth and back and forth on the topic, but you never really end up doing anything about it. You just sit and watch it happen. Part of you is so scared and lonely and the other part hates you for that and believes that you’d be better off alone. You think in your mind “Let them make the first move, that way I know they have a genuine interest in wanting to know me.” Truth is you never really gave anyone a good reason to make the initial move. So you just sit and watch as life passes you by. Then a part of you believes “This is the way things were meant to be. Being alone means no one can hurt you.” Then another part believes both sides are being over dramatic fucks who need to shut up. It’s very noisy up there. Anyone just say something. Anyone that reads this. Even you. Yes you. The one who listens in their spare time. It’s hard for me to say it face to face, so here it is. It could be anything. Doesn’t have be about this. Simple things or complex things. Maybe about the music. Maybe about what’s going on in your head. Maybe about nothing at all. Anyone just say anything. I know Whiskered-Fish is having a bad time as of late. Want to talk? What about AtinitofGreen? How are you doing today? Anyone just say anything.