Have you ever had that one moment where you know for sure it’s time to die? That one final mistake that tells you for sure? The cherry on top of the ice cream.
I had that moment today.
I know for sure now. I’ve gone beyond repair. I can’t fix anything. Everything has gone too far out of my control. I’m out of options. I’m out of luck. I’m out of energy.
I’m so tired. It’s time.
I don’t know when I’ll be dead, but soon. It’ll be soon.
It was nice knowing all of you.
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I kind of want to die right now
are you okay?
this honestly made me cry 🙁
What happened?
I’ve felt that way many times. But what did I actually feel? I just had a thought that “this was the last straw”. But that is completely arbitrary. Something happened, that knocked me emotionally off balance, and I chose to interpret it as a fateful sign that my time was up.
I think you’re doing the same thing. You feel beat down by life, exhausted, and you’ve reached a breaking point. But you actually have loads of options.
You can replenish your energy, most likely. Get some rest, have something to eat, drink some water. Set some boundaries, say some no’s.
I hope you won’t choose to act on this like you wrote, but instead realise that you have so many options for your life and your actions.
Good luck with living, and hugs 🙂