… the world or the universe or whatever is just against you? I always feel like nothing good comes to me, without there being a negative side or event. Like it’s a give and take: if I do this and get this which I would like, what will I have taken from me in return?
Like an eye for and eye, something good for something bad. And it’s something I see confirmed in everything I do, and I know I know – the more I want to see it, the more I do. The more I think this is how things work, the more I’ll see it everywhere. But I can’t help it.
It’s like life isn’t meant to be good for me, not for long at least.
Anyone else? Or just me? Probably just me.
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You are not the only one. I completely understand. I know I do not belong here, never did. I am coming to a point that it seems there is a void of emotion, that comes with peace
For no matter how many mistakes I made or how hard I tried, no one saved me. I guess, I cannot expect them too, considering what it is I want.
I’ve felt as though I don’t belong here my whole life pretty much. There’s a lot of that seem to feel that way. Why are we here? What is the purpose? I haven’t found mine or the point and I’ve had long enough to figure it out.
Left a word out….There’s a lot of *us* that seem…
i can’t get myself to accept this existence as an accident. as if we’re all just here.
it doesn’t feel like an accident to me. i think there are truly evil entities out there that spread deceit to keep us down. i believe the truth is actually much brighter, much more hopeful, but with all this negative energy consuming our society, our earth, it’s hard to see any light in this mess. so it’s no wonder people throw themselves off buildings, smoke their lungs black, drink the nights away. it all SEEMS hopeless, but i think we’re silently under attack. because, even though life has always been a struggle, you have to admit, our world has declined significantly within the last century, despite advancements in technology. society’s being destroyed right before our eyes. it’s so disheartening! whatever it is that’s trying to keep us down, knows that we all have amazing potential beyond words, and would rather convince us that we’re nothing, and we’re all worthless scum, and that’s all we’re ever be. rather than embracing light. maybe the bible is right…
as i child, i was surprisingly, very negative and hateful. as i got older, i became more positive.
i still have that hateful side in me, i still feel it strongly. but even i’m starting to see myself that the answer really is love. i think people too often confuse love with the romantic kind of love, because that’s how i always saw it, but i realized that love has a broad spectrum that goes beyond romance.
coming from an empath, this world is so dark. maybe it’s the city i live in too. as soon as i moved back to this hellhole, i picked up on the negative energy like that. was living out in the west coast before, by the ocean. i miss it dearly. i’m clawing my way out of this place, because i just can’t get myself to believe that it’s this bad everywhere.
I read an article the other day regarding possible environmental causes of depression. Can’t recall where I found it though now.
Know exactly what you are saying about negative energy. I generally have a good radar to detect that. I wonder if empaths absorb negative energy inadvertently?
It’s a dog eat dog world. Sensitive and empathetic people get mowed over, chewed up and spit out.
I feel like that all the time.