Happy August 15 everybody!
Today was the day I chose to kill myself to test a myth, but sadly I won’t do it.
I have a huge, beautiful thing to do on the 20. And because of the proximity it had with the day I chose for my death, I decided to postpone it.
I’m kinda sad, I really wanted to be today. But at this point, any date will be fine. I can’t keep this lie going on, they’re going to find out sooner or later.
So, new date: the 28, 29 or 30, probably.
I’m kinda scared and sometimes I don’t want to do it, but I have to. I can’t keep this going forever. I’m scared of pain and failure.
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I’m scared to man. But hey, I’m glad you have that beautiful thing to do, I really am.
Thank you! And may I ask why are you scared? Is it because of your method? I hope you have peaceful and relaxing days.
I don’t really know. Because in some moments I just see myself as this lost person, and I don’t know if it’s the right thing to do that to that person. But then most of the time I see myself in the way that it makes the most sense to just end it.
Hopefully that answer makes sense haha.
Being scared is the worst it means you will probably never do it . This site should be for the champions that go through with it!! So let us know before hand when you are actually going through with it. And let us know after if it didn’t end up happening. Always be a champion.
Wow. So being a champion is someone who takes their own life? Jesus. I beg to differ. If you have fear about suicide, I’d think it’s a really good idea to listen to that fear. Suicide isn’t for everybody. If you realize the fear is because you really want to live, that’s being a champion. If you find that the fear is just resistance to doing something scary and still feel suicide is your choice, well, that’s being a champion, too.
Don’t be so damned judgemental.
How was me saying that it’s a champion move for people who really go through with their wishes is judgemental? Freedom of speech means freedom of opinion and an opinion can never be wrong because facts and data don’t go into the formation of an opinion. Think Kurt Cobain – he is a champion.
No no, I will do it, I have to. I’m scared of pain and failure, but if I do fail I will try again and again. I can’t live, I have to die. Although, your way of judging is so weird, username123
I’m just saying… it gets tiring reading posts of people who set a date but never ever go through with it. I mean, I’m here to meet someone like myself who is definitely going through with it and isn’t all chatter chatter then lives til death from stroke at 75, etc.
Well, look no further, I am going to do it. I have to, I can’t live. I already got rid of my belongings and the money I have now, well, I’ll use it in good food, and it will only last a week. No savings, no future, no college, nothing. Some decisions I made were final, and I can’t turn back.
Thank you, muspelhem! Yeah, I didn’t know who I was talking to at first, but after I read some of his mean comments in others’ posts, I’m not going to listen to him anymore.
I’m glad to hear it. You matter 🙂
Kamidaka, I’m sorry for whatever is troubling you and for whatever brought you to this point, I feel like you are a beautiful person and I hope you are finding some comfort
Either he’s too pro-death or just want to see the world burn with him.
I think it’s a mix of immaturity and a brain fried by too many drugs. Idk. I’m tired of it.
i wonder what it’s like to have a date set. i’ve never set a date or felt a need to. i figured if i ever were to “catch the spaceship to mars”, i’d never even expect it. i have imagined that it would be one of those impulse kind of things. you know… where you’re just like “fuck it” to all, and truly had enough. i envisioned ridding of all my possessions, donating most, burning some. i hope it never comes to this, but i’m open to any possibility. i see zero sense in confining myself to one or two possibilities, as i don’t see life through a black and white lens.
stay true, safe and blessed! cheers!
Thank you, you too! And for me is vice versa, I always wondered what it’s like to don’t have a date. Sometimes life can get so hard that you want to kill yourself right there, but when you have a date you endure everything. Also, it is good for scheduling some things, like when to donate your stuff, when to stop saving money and just spend it, when to finish your suicide note or anything you have pending.