The depression comes and goes. Each time it comes it’s more intense. I’m 56 and feel like a total failure, pointless and useless. A burden. I’ve been watching The Bridge again, wishing I had the strength to make one last visit and end this. All I really want is to go to sleep and never wake up. But the bridge seems like it’s my only real option. 4am and I can’t sleep. So lonely, so tired, such a misfit in life. Please….Sleep, come and put me out of my misery.
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I feel like a misfit too. each bday, i think today like this, what wil be next year like. u say u r 56. i am 33, single, have friends, my mom stil calls and asks hav i had dinner.
pointless and useless to who? do u hav to prove anythin to anyone, i feel i dont. but frnkly i keep away from my friends of college, jus a few whom i keep contact with. because i guess that was the years when maturing u geyt to know pple and pple get to know u.
any thoughts on death or afterlife or what this is all about. tts what i am trying to get to now. i try google i get church of this or that, not real thots of pple. jus want to try and see if this can be figured out.