It’s really interesting how we crave what we can’t have, we crave more and more.
I was fine for a week or so, two weeks I was moving forward and I tried to get my mind off suicide (it didn’t work out that much).
Now I did a lot of things for my crush, and yes it felt good spending energy on something and doing good so I could make someone happy, but I know how much it hurts when people don’t appreciate having you, as if you are replaceable and someone just purely common when on the other side that person matters the world to you.
She got back with her ex, and then she started acting out weird or I did, we fought and we no longer talk. It would never work, I gave up and thoughts friends would be just fine perhaps, prolly because I got addicted with talking to her 2-3 hours from 2am to sometimes 5am. But she never texted anymore she probably realized I like her (meh I love her) and more or less we just stopped talking or I did so. We are classmates so I have to see her everyday, we avoid each other we don’t talk, we never really talked that much more like texting.
She would reply to my snaps sometimes but I never replied back, today well, she replied again and I as usual ignored it (I don’t want to get my hopes up and more importantly I don’t want to hurt her) but then she said stop texting me if you don’t eant to talk then why do you do this, I replied and as always it escalated to a fight and more or less it just proved me how bad and rigged I am, and how much I can’t handle anything.
I was doing good, or so I think imo, but then one small action and I’m down to my knees.
If you did read this all kudos to you, I wrote this from my phone so please bear with me.
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Hi,
From my experience I can tell you that is much better to appreciate a girl who is crazy about you, that waiting something that probably will never happen. If you really like her, you can speak privately face to face, tell her about your feelings… But if she’s not giving you anything more than her friendship, you better accept it because having a good friend is very precious too.
I don’t want to offer you just a few options to this situation, but I think that you have thousands of potential opportunities that you are ignoring right now because of this girl.
Man, I’m not a native English speaker, but I hope that I made myself clear.
Cheers mate 😉
Thanks for the tip but I alreadywent through that. She loves someone else and she is with that someone else and as far as I can tell they are happy together.
Now I tried to be friends with her basically, but it doesn’t work I have to force everything down and I get no kind of interest back therefore I say fuck it.
Thing is, I thought my feelings for her were gone we didn’t talk for two weeks or so, but then last night I saw her st the mall and my heart jumped (what usually happens when I see a crush), and no we didn’t talk there.
I saw a post of my ex… I think that I’m gonna deactivate my Facebook account… I lived the country, I intented to be with other girls… Nothing worked… Whatever, even if hurts me when I remember her… I’m not the same person before…
Don’t be afraid to move one, don’t be afraid to reborn!
Follow your own way, get close to your dreams, and the love will come 🙂
In this moment I’m doing the right things for my future family, obviously will not be with my ex :’))))
But I think that there’s a woman, a wonderful woman who needs me, and I already start fighting for her. Just do your best man, your life is about much more than a single person.
Goodluck boy, be brave! 😉