Last night I went to a hostel, it was nice. I’ll get a haircut today. I like to wear wigs, so my long hair tends to make things more difficult. I’ll also meet with a friend.
My father doesn’t hate me, even when he was the most affected by my decision. He told me he loves me. I really appreciate it, but I’m far too gone now. I can’t turn back now, not when I’m so close. I’m so sorry, I love him too. I wish things were different.
These last two days I’ll wear two outfits I made myself. I’m so proud, they’re so pretty. I’ll feel pretty again, would you like to see photos? Ah but I’m not sure…
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The way you feel about father I feel about my mother. I have to kill myself soon and i cant turn back. Even though my mom loves me and I love her too. But I have to move on with my suicide.
How are you going to kill yourself? If you don’t mind me asking
I’m sorry to hear that and I don’t tell you this for pity.
I’m alone, I don’t have any family with me or friends… Just this old crappie cheap chinese phone… I wished to be dead the most part of my life, but I never made a plan for it…
And now I discovered this site, and I see that I’m not the only one with this feelings…
I hope you can find a few reasons to keep fighting for your life, after all one day we all day… ?
@albert.sai yeah, it’s always surprising to find that you’re not the only one who feels that way, there are a lot of nice people here, with really sad stories. And man I hope your situation gets better, I know that feeling of being alone.
I really hope you find another way, I’m so sorry. And well I have changed meth*ds three times, but for now I’m going with hanging. What about you?
Wow you wear wigs that is awesome. I’ve always like wigs. What type of wigs do you own? A nice blonde one?
Thank you so much! And I own a lot of wigs because I have a hobby called “cosplay”, it’s really fun and I wish it was more than a hobby.
But most of them are platinum white, I love that hair color, I even dyed my own hair that color, but my parents forced me to dye it black. I have that hair colour in various styles, really short, short with long bangs, side ponytail and a straight but really long.
@ kamidaka
read ur comment & on my way to writing you something
till then…
what characters do you like cos-playing 🙂 ?
@farah Well, so far I managed to do 6 cosplays, and I’m finishing another one for Sunday, and although I love all of them, my favorite was Allen Walker, because I also participated in a cosplay contest with it and I won.
*we’ll all gonna die ( sorry, I just have a couple of months learning English)
Whatever, I hope that you’ll find a reason to fight till the end. Don’t be in such a hurry to get before something that surely will come to you.
I was having dinner with my little brother. Talking to him giving him advices was so difficult knowing that I plan on leaving soon ahhhh I love the kid soo much he is the only one who I talk to well the only one who talks to me in the family. but I need to do this too. I’m so glad you were in that hostel peace and quiet and away from angry parents what a way to refresh yourself & I bet you look great those in those cosplays if you want to share pics I say go for it but I wouldn’t recommend you post it here since once you post a picture that it can be shared even if you delete it, if you want we can email. my email is the same as my username @gmail it’s open to everyone who ever is reading that needs someone to talk to. Anyways regarding cosplay I’m doing something similar to a little bit Kaneki from Tokyo ghoul lol and a little bit vegeta : ) do what makes you happy. I’ve only briefly shared my method to one other member here & it’s hanging I have my rope tied in the noose since I have no other method that’s a guarantee & I have the location all that’s waited on is the moment I hope everyone finds there solution weather its staying or leaving as long as your happy. I’m sorry why life has to be this way for us all we can do try to stay beautiful honest and move forward with what we believe is right
I always wanted a little brother.
Sadlife, you should cosplay as Wakka from Final Fantasy X.
Aww empty pluto : )
Wait Wakka? Oh I remember now hahaha OK fine if you promise to cosplay as Lulu. Ahhhh I freakn loved that game great childhood memories
Why does everyone online think I’m a girl?
Well, I guess I can pull off Lulu’s gothic look. Hmm…
I’m sorry empty Pluto I could have sworn you said it few years back briefly I guess I was wrong my bad maybe we can change it from Lulu to Kimahri or Aaron unless you still prefer the Goth hehehehe
What if Rikku was goth?
Rikku is an albhed most of their faces are covered with goggles and stuff so I don’t think Goth would look so good on them
Yeah, I guess so.
Kudr means ‘goth’ in Al Bhed.