Let’s just say that any method I tried to get the supplies ended up shit, I paid for the easier parts and never managed to get the hard part (stupid from my side).
So I’m just gonna surrender and go for pain.
I was getting better but then, shit happened this person I thought I was close with ended up talking shit behind my back, sorting out I’m clingy annoying and shit in general.
EVEN THOUGH that person knew of my mental state and suicidal thoughts (my mistake) I’d love some feedback. I’m going to skip school tomorrow as if to avoid… (this happened 2 days ago evening)
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It says more against that person’s character than it does of your worth. Please understand that.
I wholeheartedly agree with iceberg. I think we can all relate to trusting the wrong person. I know I’ve done it before. You tell someone everything, because he/she gives you the green light that he/she will listen and love/care for you unconditionally. And you think you have this great relationship, and then, for no apparent reason, that person uses the sensitive data that you revealed in confidence against you. It’s happened to me more than once, and I’m sure I’m not the only one.
Human relationships are messy and complicated. I don’t think anyone REALLY understands them. I think you need to take some time before making any big decisions about how you feel about life or even relationships with other people in general. I’m not trying to minimize the pain you are in (I get it—I’ve been there…more than once). But I’m just saying, give yourself the time and space to grieve the loss of the relationship you thought you had with this person. And if that means taking a day off school to recover by curling up in bed and watching “Netflix”, then go ahead. Give yourself a “mini-vacation”. Do what you can to take care of yourself. (There was an episode of a TV show called “8 Simple Rules for Dating My Teenage Daughter”. The show was probably before your time, but there was a line it when the teenage daughter wanted to stay home from school because of an emotional hurt, and the mom said “sometimes you just need the day”. I didn’t watch the show very often but this one line always stood out in my mind and when I have just had it with everything and everyone and can’t deal, sometimes I repeat the line to myself.)
Thank you for the really nice advices.
Basically the day went the complete opposite, my parents hate seeing me take days off, so I have some medical issues and I used that as a reason to not go to school. I went to go get checked for some kidney issues, I went to a hospital which redirected me to another and another and another, until it led to a private medical center? I finally managed to do my checking after hours of walking.
So to avoid not going home, I went to take a haircut and also went shopping to check for any clothes. I got stopped by the security guards because they thought I was stealing something (trust me dumb people, the second time they stopped me for nothing)
Right now I’m at work, so I guess I’ll update this after 8 hours because my shift just began.