Glad to be here.

So I figured I would share my story. I have been struggling with depression for over 20 years. About 4 years ago I was diagnosed major depression. Last September 2017 I spent 5 days in a partial hospitalization program to try to help me. The Wellbutrin I was taking was upped from 300mg to 450mg. I just was not getting any enjoyment out of life. In Nov. 2017 I found out my wife of 10 years was having an affair with co-worker. She never once apologized or showed any remorse for what she did. I few days later I lost my job that I liked going to & what I consider good pay.

So after a few days of not eating or doing anything I decided I was ready to go. I took 50 of my 150mg Wellbutrin XL, tied an extension cord around my neck and shower head then leaned forward and pushed as hard as I could. The bathtub was also 1/4 full and i was face down.

My wife found me just after I passed out. She did not say anything of cry about what i just did. I did not tell her i took the wellbutrin. We just went to bed after that. I thought now I just go to bed and sleep for good. Well I woke up the next morning and thought WTF besides a headache I was fine.

About 1 hour after waking up the room started spinning. I told my wife to call 911 and about the OD and she called me an A-hole then called.

After a few days in the hospital & the most insane dreams + hallucinations. I was sent to a inpatient rehabilitation program. The other patients help more then the psychiatrist. It was a group therapy type of program.

Fastword to today i have a new girlfriend thats great and treats me awesome. Still unemepolyed but have some great interviews lined up. My mom passed after a long battle with lung disease 2 weeks ago. Im sad shes gone but happy her pain is over. Im handling her passing healthily god I miss her though.

Things are looking up & im glad im still breathing.