life is just so useless.
I would live if I honestly thought I could be happy.
but, I can’t. I don’t know how.
I’m sixteen and I’m going to kill myself.
I don’t want too though, I want to be happy, but I can’t be happy. I’ll never get better.
five long years of just waiting for a day to be happy. I can’t remember actually liking myself. Isn’t that sad?
I hate myself more than anything in this world. I’m a failure and I deserve to die.
No one loves me, I don’t deserve love.
I think I’m going to wait till after homecoming to do it.
I have my plan. I just have to get everything in order.
I’m going to do it this time. I swear to you. I’m done with life.
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Same here.. guy or girl? what’s your method?
I’m sixteen too. But I’m waiting a year. I have buisness to finish.
when I read about the war on drugs and then come here… makes me sad(der). So much pain that can be numbed with a toke of that good ole’ f*** it but never will be because getting high is a crime. I wrote once,
“what would I be doing if I weren’t getting high?
I’d probably be dead, depression is so sly…”
If I didn’t start toking, I’d be right where guys are, getting ready to punch my own ticket. Give yourself a chance to see your life differently before you go: get high. I didn’t have a reason to exist before (life isn’t enjoyable) but drugs gave me a reason to get up everyday. I’m psychologically addicted but alive. It’s like freezing your diseased body until such a time that a cure has been discovered for what ails. The one thing I’m confident in is that one day, things will change drastically. I just have to stay alive and be patient.
I was reading some of your posts and I know exactly how you feel because I feel the same way. Would you be willing to connect via email or messenger? There are some things I really want to talk to you about; things that you went through and that I’m going through right now.
I was reading some of your posts and I know exactly how you feel because I feel the same way. Would you be willing to connect via email or messenger? There are some things I really want to talk to you about; things that you went through and that I’m going through right now.
Hey sure, email me at kacibayley@yahoo.com