April 27,2018
Dear, Fur
I left home yesterday at around 4:30am and walk around 10 miles by foot and by biking. I realized that it’s been months since I last rana-way from home and currently this is the sixth time since I ran-away. Which was about 3 years ago. So let me explain why I am doing what I’m doing. Last year in tenth grade I started to get depressed. I never felt I was worth enough other than I was just expected to do school work and to just help keep the house all nice and clean including the yard. So towards my birthday in 2017. It was finals week and I was freaking-out if I was going to be able to pass any of my finals. I ended up with have three F’s and a C grade during that finals week. I felt like I was a failure that whole week. When I had eventually told my mom the scores that week on finals. She was so un-loving and unsupportive towards me. I took a pencil sharper blade out and cried silently as she yelled at me. At the moment, I just sat their cutting and crying. Later, for almost a full year I would be cutting and crying over being a worthless and stuck-up teenager. In that later it came to be that I was pretty much non-existence as a human and more of just an object of usage to be taken to work’s expectations to nothing but that. I will admit that I had met one of the most amazing person that had made me feel so happy to be who I am today despite my failures and mistakes right before I had a hard time with who I was. She would be the person that I shared everything with my trust, my love, and my heart. I met her December 14, 2016.
Even my stupid idea of Leaving Oceanside to go to Santa Rosa may be to much But Im determine.
Love ya all
Ill keep you guys Posted
(oof right now I’m at Starbucks using their internet)
2 comments
You have spunk, I’ll give you that.
Wherever this trail ends up taking you, my best wishes are with you. Stay safe, Wulfox.