Staying with family can be miserable for some, especially with a brother that steal family members money while they sleep and an uncle that’s pressuring you for more rents and a clean house 24/7 because he now manages the house money from a distance. Now my abusive brother’s father wants to come back around who I don’t like. I work fulltime with a vehicle note and everyone depends on it but I pay the big bill. I have chronic physical pain everyday and have a brain injury. I just want to die, I see Kate Spade’s bravery, not to disrespect and think I can do it too. Been thinking about it today but I want alcohol in my system. I wish things were easier but I know they won’t be. I love my cat but he’s a responsibility too and now I lay here with burning pain debating my future.
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Can’t you get your Dr. To prescribe you one of those strong painkillers to deal with the chronic pain?
No, the kind that I did get wasn’t strong enough.
i have a cat too. i love him.
and, your cat loves you. he won’t want you to leave.
@iamdarling that’s cool that you have a cat too. Yes, I believe he loves me too and I don’t think he would want me to leave either. I don’t want my family to see after him, they want him outside and wild. I don’t want him at a shelter either but he’s well behaved. I’m just a little concerned when I leave him a home, my crazy brother had declawed one or two finger/toes; I was very upset. Overall, I love my boo, we are approaching one year as family.
he declawed him? that’s terrible.
You should organize your problems by priority. I think your chronic pain is the most important. If you injure your body, you can’t work and life will get even worse. So I’d strongly advise to just take a week or two off to get better. I used to have severe back pain occasionally and the only thing that solved it was resting (and of course take meds, gentle stretching after a week of rest) for a couple of weeks. The body needs time to heal or it’ll get worse.
Given all the major issues with your family, I think you’d be much better off living alone. Or if you have a family member that you like and trust, you can both find another place to live. I find it’s much easier if there are at least 2 people living together, in case one gets sick the other can help out.
I’ve also had some really hard times in my life, esp when I wasn’t working but the key is to keep going, keep working when you are healthy enough and solve each problem one at a time. I needed to move out of a really bad apt more than 5 yrs ago but it was very hard to find a new one, still, I went out on the weekends, whenever I found time to look. It took about 6-8 months of searching till I finally found a place I liked and it was totally worth it.
As for the cat, either leave it with someone you trust or take it with you. Once your family is out of the picture then the cat will be much easier to look after. It’s all the other problems taken together that make it seem overwhelming.
Edit: I was working at the time I was looking for another apartment. (I left that out)