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I know that I don’t know what you’re going through or your exact situation but I do know that feeling. Do you want to explain in more detail or talk about it? I used to, and still do, get episodes after or right before a depressive episode where I feel hollow and like I don’t control my life. It’s like someone else controls me and I get so sick of it that I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up, just disappear, never exist in the first place but I never act on those thoughts in that mind state so I just sit and do nothing, hoping I’ll float off into space amongst all the nothingness. I don’t seem to notice but when I’m in that state, I shut everybody out and isolate myself. I don’t know what to do when that happens but I hope it helps knowing other people go through similar things? I’m sorry that this is so long but I hope you can talk things out, even if its to a fish or to the darkness in your mind.