That I am going to end my GOD DAMN FUCKING miserable life on January 1, 2020 because it sucks MOTHER FUCKING ***** SUCKING COCK!!!!!!
I am sick of my life ONLY getting worse and almost NEVER getting ANY better!
I am now 21 years old. I have wanted to kill myself since I was about 11 years old. I already have a plan in my mind. If my life does not get any better by January 1, 2020; then I will take my own life. I have been dealing with this FUCKING SHIT EVER SINCE I was 11 years old. 2018 will be the 10th consecutive SHITTY year I will have had, when it is over. 11 will be all I can take.
Now, if god can start treating me more kindly, and stop being such a FUCKING **** ASS DICK to me, then I am NOT going to take my own life on January 1, 2020.
I really hope god can start treating me more KINDLY and stop being such a COCKSUCKING **** ASS ***** to me; otherwise I am taking my own life January 1, 2020; and NOTHING that ANYONE can say or do will stop me from doing so, if I get to that point and nothing changes.
That’s all I really have to say for now.
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I feel exactly like you and guess what? God is an Asshole. Probably he’ll let your life wonderful a bit before the day of your suicide and after you give up the idea God will making your life a big shit again. Just to laugh a lot of your face. He did that to me.
God doesn’t exist. Sorry if this sounds mean or if I am offending your religious views but you should stop blaming every shitty thing that happens to you onto a God and realize that the source of your problems might be one of these two (or the two at the same time);
1. You
2. Your enviroment and the random circumstances of life
It’s nice that you plan to wait for a while until you do it. Are you just going to wait for life to get better or will you proactively try to get yourself on the right track? I really hope it’s the latter. The fact that you’re willing to wait for that long makes me think there still might be a shred of hope inside you, and that’s something that a lot of people already lost.
Yeah you’re probably right about that. But that is as long as I will wait. If it doesn’t get even a LITTLE better by then, then I’m outta here.