I’m feeling bad. Anytime I feel like that I’d prefer to be dead. I am weak and also powerless. I am alone. My head is trembling. Even my Tummy is kinda shaking softly. I’d like to feel for once to have reached where I belong. A Home, … People? Do I have to feel?

This is kind but it’ll not help. I have Identity Crisis on Lettercases, Words and with anyone I am trying to imagine. I have lost like any interest in personality. It turned for me the worst as I’m not superficial. I’m socially just more bad than a dumpfill. I am expensive. I’m heavy under loaded. Not the People can’t fullfil my Expectations. I have no expectations in a Friend. I entrust People nothing to rescue myself.
Thanks, but help yourself. I like to be in the position to say like: I’m suffering. This is torture. I can’t stand it.
NO DAMN, I feel like been played as cheap card to eventually made it for myself in the way to ask Guests of my Parents to marry me. I must not give into any of them for my future. I’m fine.