endure, no reason

I’m just fucking alone. I hate this fucking stupid class, I have no desire to ever use this skill, but supposedly it will build to other skills.

I got told I did the fucking assignment wrong after working all weekend on it. Where was the FUCKING answer for that? Not in the book, not in class time, apparently everyone else just fucking worked all thanksgiving week on this SHIT class.

I’m thinking about driving into a median on the way home, and I’m thinking about not calling the fucking hotline, because I’m fucking sick of this.

I hate Fall, I hate the fucking conservative shitface no insurance for the poor (or disability), pull yourself up by your fucking bootstraps midwest.

Is it any surprise that there are shootings? This worthless place grinds people down until they have nothing left.

I’m alone. Not that other people don’t feel like I do, it just doesn’t appear to matter or help.

FUCK. I’m sick of being told how insightful, or smart I am. Not smart enough to carve out success, not smart enough to beat the economy, not smart enough to kill my abusers. NOT FUCKING SMART. A PERCEPTIVE PERSON WOULD KILL THOSE THAT ABUSE THEM.

Shit, I just hate this shithole town. Then I think about that all cities are various reiterations of the shithole concept. That’s what we do to each other. I want to love people, but man do they make that an impossible task.

*sigh* one of these days man, one of these days. Swerve right into the median, no more jerkface (that’s me).