How in the world do people make it through their ENTIRE lives without ending it?
8 comments
How in the world do people make it through their ENTIRE lives without ending it?
Please log in to report posts
8 comments
Life is short, it will be over before you know it
Suicide is something I desire, but I cant bring myself to do it because I dont want to hurt the people who care about me. I’ve been handling things by saying to myself, “Well, if it’s too late for me to be happy, I can at least try to make other people happier.” I keep my pain to myself and only cry when I’m alone. That’s how I’ve been making it through anyway.
I am still here because a bunch people decided I should be and a therapist that thinks the same and has the ability to actually to teach me how to go about sticking around. But really I can’t imagine why most people just stay on (or hang on?) for the ride that lasts for like almost 80 years. No clue.
How? How does he convince you?
Good questions both. In order for a therapist to do any convincing I first had to find one that I could feel a connection with. I went through seven of these people who were near useless before I learned a way to search out a useful one. This is what got it done:
1. I googled to find an appealing therapy protocol. I chose EMDR.
2. Googled to find therapists who practiced my chosen therapy protocol in my area.
3. Read their profiles to find one who appealed to me. The one I chose was not the nearest one but the one who seemed most relatable to me.
Now I am fighting to relearn life. Biggest challenge I have ever faced.
So the way this therapist is convincing is that she uses my chosen therapy, she is downright relatable, I mean we actually have a good flow of communication. This is something I had never known with another human being. Also she practices what she preaches, in other words she too has an EMDR therapist she sees. Sure, she knows psychology and the EMDR protocol more than enough to help me but like anyone else she has still has challenges too. In other words she is a patient too, she can relate to those who suffer what we do because she has suffered as we have.
As much as I hate to admit it, we suicidal and depressed people are the minority. Even in countries like South Korea or Japan where suicide abounds, only 1-5% of the population commit suicide. The rest of the world is even lower than that. Before I was depressed I was actually full of hope, didn’t give a damn and looked forward to something in my day. Seems most people have that mindset.
Or want to live FOREVER for that matter.
Makes no sense. Dying young is the best option. At least for me.
I guess it wouldn’t be hard to live til 80 or 90, but why do it? I know one thing is I never want to experience old age or middle age, I frankly didn’t want to live past 18, but now I’m 24. I still feel things are the same as when I was 18, I’m just a lot uglier and in a lot more pain and things are no longer very enjoyable..