I find myself everyday becoming lost in my own world, and my own mind. In my short life, I have found reality to be a tragedy. I’m not talking about things that have nothing to do with me, such as politics, and world issues, but I find that if I was to face real life, I would find myself belittled and bitter looking back at the poor choices and cringeworthy decisions I’ve made. I find myself easily lost and afraid. Suicide seems to never be an option, but I just wonder how to permanently escape these mental barriers without ending it all.
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The irony is that people who want to disappear get exactly what they wish for, just not in the way they think. The more we escape, the more we forget about who we really are. It becomes harder and harder to get ourselves back over time. To get past the mental barriers, you have to love yourself. Love is an action, and not just a feeling.
Maybe the answer isnt in escaping, but in embracing instead. If today was your last day on earth, and you were going to kill yourself, you wouldnt be as afraid to do things. might as well, right? There wouldnt be anything to lose. You would take risks, do things, and say things you normally wouldnt, because you would know that you’re gonna die anyway. Spending every day like that, utilizing this “suicidal” sort of courage, is the same thing as living. After all, eventually, we really are gonna die anyway. All of us.
Once the barrier is installed you can’t uninstall, you CAN only run .. don’t let them get your life.
To add another, I only see reality as completely, just, not worthwhile. There will never be anything here that is good….. I wouldn’t think that it’s not an option, it’s really a simple process once you get used to the idea. As long as you don’t have any attachments on Earth, so always keep it light and gentle. If you have attachments maybe the universe wouldn’t let you leave? Ha just a random thought.