Hello everyone. I relapsed and I am ashamed of it. I ended up walking alone at night and had this urge to just run away. Do you guys also have this feeling that you don’t which place is the right one for you? So you just want to run as fast as you could until you can’t feel your legs anymore?
I really lost touch with myself this last year, which was one of the hardest ones in my life. I am looking for myself and my purpose but sometimes it seems like I’ll never find it unless I run away to this unknown place
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Please, dont be ashamed of relapsing. It will do nothing but make it worse and more likely to relapse again. Getting out of addiction is a gradual process, making mistakes is ok. I hope we both can make it 🙂
thank you, love 🙂
Hi Amy,
I see from your past posts that you used to cut? Is this what you are referring to? I to have relapsed as well. Please don’t let it discourage you, it’s a tough thing to quit.
Yes, the self harm and suicide thoughts came back 🙁 Stay strong too, we can do it
I couldn’t tell you that I’ve been anywhere this past year, a year could go by I wouldn’t know it cuz I’m not feeling myself and I don’t keep track of time, I can’t keep up with it.. it’s like it’s rushing past me but nothing changes each day except I feel worse and worse. I couldn’t say it’s the worst year ever because all my years just mesh into this terrible blob of horribleness. I did feel alright for a bit but now I just feel like shits changing and I feel like a worse version of myself
I’ve ran away a few times. But I always seem to come back