sad

im back on here, having a rough time recently. ending it all might be a relief, i need to be positive though. i will be after i vent some. life is tough and cheap where im from and i guess i didnt make the best choices with education and jobs. trying hard though. might get my own spot but it wont be in the best area. if i can get through this process of getting my own government subsidized housing, i can work on other avenues of my life (like getting a job long term). im probably too old to be on here. its not cool or trendy to be considering this at my age, but whatever.  just lonely and frustrated. being an only child as an adult sucks, not really a good support system. ok, time to put my brave face back on for the few people in my life who actually care about me.