Theres no such thing as enough.

Please, don’t try to numb yourself. It’s the worst feeling. It’s impossible not to have any feeling. The desire to experience nothingness and the belief in nothingness is a doctrine of death and atheism, which does not lead anywhere. It comes also from despair, lack of vitality, and other dreadful mental states.

When I was in your mental state, I really didn’t want to experience anything but sleep all day and forget everything.

However, I can tell you that change is possible. After 5 years, I am in a much better state. I am healthy and I feel alive.

Please don’t think this is your end and that there is nothing better.