I know its dumb but no one ever talks about this. as for me i am a religious person somehow and i dont need to mention my religion, but the thing is allll religions viewed suicide as a sin , as someone disobeying and taking away life, and i do understand that so very much but ,, what if one wants to die so so so much . its very sad to see one fighting themselves like this, for me i hate myself more because i want to die then wish to die more, isnt that stupid and pathetic. what is this way of living? i tried to kill myself once but to be honest ill never be brave enough and ill live in this misery of mind and it hurts it hurts so much how everyday is a struggle. i want to be dead.
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You can try to look forward and keep moving with you life and religion, or you can drop it all and get off at the next stop. It’s up to you. I’d recommend keeping your religion and try to move forward. Once you loose your hope it’s hard to get it back and all you’ll be holding on to is a balloon of your own thoughts waiting to pop.
i hope to do that i dont think death is the answer tbh, even if somehow it seems like it, i hope to just find a way to hold on and not feel guilty for wanting to die so much
Please. No. You do NOT want to be dead.
You are NOT lost.
We all want you to stay.
When I was suicidal (attempted twice) I was looking for ‘reasons to exit’. It took two attempts, painful recovery, more regret to finally realize what I was doing wrong. I should have been looking for ‘reasons to live’. If you looked for it before then LOOK AGAIN. You might find the whole ‘looking’ process to be the beauty of life.
Took me 40 years to realize that in life, you have to ask the RIGHT question for the RIGHT answer. Unfortunately, you will NOT find the correct answers amidst people that are also suicidal. It becomes a classic case of blind leading the blind. Please. I BEG you to LIVE and hope that you find yours.
With great sincerity,
Lex
thank you very much lex for you nice wishes really, it’s not that i have no reasons to live i actually have lots but it all goes back to me not caring enough and that my religion is the only thing stopping me.
i feel very sad for what you had to go through and im so glad you survived it all thats very brave of you, it is very true that i cannot seek help from other suicidal people but it feels good to vent without feeling judged.
thank you lots again for your sincerity and i wish you a lovely life too.
with best hopes
noso
I hear all is forgiven when you die. Well maybe not everything.. but I have heard suicide is forgiven and as soon as you die the slate is wiped clean.
But of course, I really don’t believe in the afterlife! But nothing, burning in flames, anything could be worse than life right here, right now.
I think hell exists more in waking, sentient, conscious life than after death. I don’t know why, but it is what man has created. That is why I myself race towards the finish line because I will find more hell here than anything I could find after death.
you may have a point and frankly i see how this place is absolutely hell but idk i have lots of faith in afterlife because i do want to think that theres a day where the shitty people on this earth will get what they deserve its not fair if that didnt happen. anyhow yeah at least in my religion suicidal people go straight to hell unless theres a valid valid reason or like if they had incurable depression, no one knows but mostly espsically in the place i live .. its rare for anyone to commit suicide and if they do itll be in the news.. sadly soyeah
I have thought about that. I fear attention so I really don’t want any headlines before or after death. I don’t think I would be recognized if I commit suicide because I don’t think they do that here.. I just want to commit and be forgotten. Nobody knows me anyhow.. but I did have some people set me up with a criminal background so maybe it will be like “local criminal found dead” LOL. I’m more worried that they’ll set me up a funeral, which I would never want, but alas! I hope my body is not found. As long as I’m dead I don’t really have to worry about the afterwards. I still think any afterlife or none at all is better than this life. I do though fear dying itself as it may be painful, but I don’t fear much the after.
As far as I know, Christianity (mostly Catholicism) is the only major religion that calls suicide a sin against god. Other religions may try to dissuade you by helping you find your purpose, but most major teachings like Hinduism, Buddhism, most religions of the East which make up the vast majority of humans on the planet, don’t portray their god as an angry creature that punishes his creations for taking their own lives.
Your reasons for suicide are another matter entirely, and I hope you can sort them out. But I think one conflict you’re suffering from is the Christian obsession with “sin”. Also if I’m wrong and you’re not Christian, please tell us your religion because I would really like to know if any others are so hell bent on threatening suicidal people with eternal hell.
well i am not christian, i am a Muslim and many associate it with ofc terrorism but to be honest its not like that at all. it says that within the religion one can truly find the reason behind existence and it gives clear very clear images to what happens after death and all as well. in the case of suicide it calls us to seek help from god and be as patient as we can and promises that all that hard feelings won’t go to waste and if one gets too depressed and dies because of that illness god will forgive them and love them for as long as they fought. but if one doesn’t have an illness or if they just want to die because its not right to live they call it disobeying gods gift of life which i actually understand. and therefore one goes to hell if he gave away the gift of life. he told us life is hard but promised that a fair day will come and everything u ever did or anyone did will show and you’ll get things that you never dreamed off even. he even told us there is a hole in the soul that can only be filled with the right words and the faith of knowing why one exists. idk im sorry for making this long but for me i truly believe that and maybe it helps me to stay alive.. but sometimes i get way too sad that i just want to leave and idk what the future has but life is sure very very hard .
if u are religious and suicidal it basically means god hates your guts for absolutely no reason
Hi lostcase. Thanks for explaining the position of Islam regarding suicide. That is the clearest explanation of it I have encountered and I like knowing those things. I can see why that would give you pause for departing. I am not Muslim but rather Lutheran. I will try to give a lutheran perspective and I hope I can do it as well you gave the Islamic perspective. Lutherans pretty much go by three of the four holy books of Islam: Tawra, Zabor, and Injil. The first two get combined and called old testament and the last one gets called new testament. Acts of suicide are mentioned in both old and new. Somewhere between six to maybe nine suicides are recorded in them. I say six to maybe nine because the word suicide did not exist when those books were written. The actions taken are mentioned and six seem solidly suicides. Not once are the acts condemned but they are not condoned either. The particular church I go to would do just about anything to help someone stay alive from suicide and is part of an association with a large number of therapists on staff. Like the Muslims, suicide is rare but it will happen. Again thank you for sharing your belief on the matter. I figure when I go it will be an untreated medical condition. Till then I will do my best to remain alive and keep on lessening the pain.
thank you so much for the explanation and im glad that i was able to make my point reach to you. i really hope you reach the peace you want, thats really thoughtful having therapists and everything it’s really nice and i hope the hearts of all those in pains eases. for me id have to wait till i get out of this pain and i hope it happens quickly. again thanks for sharing wish you the best a1957.