You read stories about how people “got better”. Not suicidal anymore. Been clean for years. But these people they deal with depression/anxiety. Not to belittle them. That is the last thing i mean to do. But what about bipolar disoder. Borderline personality disorder. The more complex problems one where you cant just change your way of thinking. With depression i personally find that you just say the opposite. And you repeat it. You keep telling telking yourself its wrong. Its lying. But what about problems bigger then that. Where there is no wrong or right and if you tell yourself there is you just send yourself into a spiral. Falling deeper and deeper.
Lately ive been feeling like….the best way to explain it im in coma. Im not me. Im distant. Living within my own mind. Having to remind myself that it is real. How does one fix that? There is no wrong or right. What can you repeat. Its not your thoughts youre trying to change. Not your emotional feeling, but your physical ones. How does one change how they physical feel?
This is just the beginning of my problems. I see no end in sight. How does one change what can not be changed?
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I wish i had an answer for you. I have asked this question many times. I pray that you can find a way
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