At 19 years old I received the most horrific news that I had lost my boyfriend to suicide and I got so depressed that I tried to end my life to be with him but ended up in so much pain and ended up being sick my mom knowing something was wrong called 911 and I was rushed to the hospital where I was held for 24 hours then sent to a psych ward where I learned if I didn’t want to survive for myself I had to survive for him and now every time I feel like giving up I remind myself he would want me to be strong
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oh my god that’s a blow.
Im sure you’ll stop grieving and find a new love. He wants you to have that of course
Thank you ? it’s kinda of a hard thing but I’m sure it’ll get better in time
I… i thinking to say this. My girlfriend has depression and she started a tretament, its only on beginning.
But i want die, the question is i dont want leave her alone and suferring (call idiot, piece of shit or anything you want, i know i am) but i waiting she become better, like not only stop the tretement bit really becme better.
Because i want to her keep going i planning to die, not like one week later, but some months, to make sure that she is really ok
Im sorry, really sorry for your boyfriend i dont know his fight or yours but i wish that you get a better life and all that things.
If you want to talk or share something pls talk more here
And i want your opinion about my thought of my gf and kill myself
(Im from Brasil, really sorry for my horrible english)
Tbh I don’t think you should do it because think about her and her depression she would want to be with you and she might end it too
If i break up with her, im a idiot that never give what she deserved.
She deserve a better bf, not a weak and stupid that cant maje her happy, that cant give a good future to her
That is my because
i know that feeling. and ive mentioned it many times on here about how im a horrible friend and he should just leave because he deserves someone million times better than me, but im going to tell you what everyone on here has told me. let them choose. its their life, their choice. when you love someone that has depression you cant feel bad about not making them happy. it isnt your fault. she needs someone to hug her. someone to be there for her. someone to wipe away her tears when she is feeling down. youre concerned about her, because of this i believe you really love her, she needs that type of love in her life. someone she can count on.
I’m sorry you lost your boyfriend to suicide. Stay strong. He would not want you to have the anguish and pain that he suffered from.
It’s a really hard thing but I’m trying my best