Wonder what spectacular, momentous events are taking place right now in places out of human reach. As I go about my days fretting over my sorry lot – lack of money, poor health, sucky job, low social status, zero relationships, no dreams and pathetic desires, there is something grand happening far out above, unconscious of me. Planets are floating, comets zipping by, stars exploding, molten lava furiously churning, gas clouds sparkling with the birth of stars, chaos amidst silence. Eternal unlike my time on earth and infinite unlike the ground I amble upon.
Sure they’re just dead matter whereas I’m a sentient Human of the 21st century. But would I be any worse off if I turn into a rock this moment? Will the universe a shit? Regardless of what I do with my silly little life here on this planet, would it in the end have any more meaning to it than it’d have if I was a hobo asteroid hurtling alone across the cosmic emptiness for eons, before finally banging head-on into some reptile infested planet?
But here I am, stuck in a particular way of being, so I’ll go on living like billions of others do and carry my curse of consciousness till the very end. Effectively, my life is already over. I’ve no goals ahead. No ambitions. I’ve been eating from the toil of poor farmers all these years without giving anything back. I’m no benefactor of humankind and society got a dirty deal off me. I’m not going to marry and spawn offspring either, so my genes get a dirty deal too from their organism. In short, I’m going to live like a rock lying in mud, oblivious to the wonder of existence in a mind-boggling universe. I’ll continue to exist. I won’t kill myself . Just for the heck of it.
End of pointless rant. Sorry for wasting anyone’s time.
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“I’m not going to marry and spawn offspring either,”
Regardless of what’s going on elseplace in the deep, dark universe, this is a wise decision. There’s about ten billion too many humans on our silly spinning stone. Help control the population – stop copulating. Good for you!
. . . keep in mind that somewhere out there, in the vast endless reaches of deep space, there’s an orbital path intersecting Earths, just waiting for an asteroid to slip into it and set its sights on the “third rock from the sun.” Can’t happen soon enough.
“I’m not going to marry and spawn offspring either,”
…thus preventing untold suffering in the futures of who knows how many.
Good on you.
Having the same thought.Wishing i could do OBE so i can see those events. Some random guy told me he could on Omegle.I know its full of shit but what if its possible.
A good post, and I’m the same way.
I would never ever ever ever reproduce because I haven’t met a child worth giving life to since the beginning of my life…. but god d*mn, I’ve been getting raped so often lately and I have no idea why I am being s*xually assaulted, and most of the time it is by complete strangers or folks I would never ever ever ever be attracted to or find any value in. ……… I like the way you write and that is usually how I would feel and live my life, but lately I am plagued because it seems every other moment someone is trying to force me to participate in their fantasies of r*pe and having s*x with complete stranger. I, personally, would prefer to commit suicide over being r*ped. I have been trying to kill myself for the last 15 years.
That was not a pointless rant. As a matter of fact, you conveyed how I view things better than I ever could. Good job. I lack money, my health is okay, I have low social status, I’ve never been in a relationship, and I have very few friends. I have pathetic desires as well that are unattainable, and I have no godly reason why I was ever created. There was a time where I was happy and had dreams, but adulthood hit me in the face and told me to be realistic.