thank you for abusing me in every way possible. thank you for sending me to school with no lunch. thank you hitting for me. thank you for not letting me hang out with my friends. thank you for working me almost to death. thank you for touching me. thank you for putting me in situations to get raped or murdered. thank you for being too stoned to raise my little brother. thank you for saying i stole from the kitchen. thank you for letting me go hungry because i ate too much then digested it. thank you for seeing my cuts and scoffing. thank you for not helping when i told you i was suicidal. thank you for taking away the only 2 people that actually cared about me.
thank you for making me work for things in life. thank you for showing me how to appreciate the things i have. you might have tried to destroy me but you should keep in mind: what doesnt kill me makes me stronger and im still here
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These people are horrid. You are strong. Because you have shared what you have shared about what happened to you and told us about some of the things it has done to your mind, you have given me (and others) insight into just how profoundly abuse and neglect go together to knock our brains out of order. Like yourself , I am of the mindset that they shall not destroy me though for a few minutes to a few hours every now and then I sure as hell wish I was gone.
Id like to talk to you privately if I may.
I can recall giving my email to another SP member only once in the seven years I have been on here. Could you give me a broad sketch of of what sort of things you want to talk about and let me think about it?
Honestly i didnt put much thought into it. All i knew is that you intrigued me and like I mentioned before, seem to care. I’d never understand why someone would care about me. I’m not worth it. Especially a stranger on the internet. I guess my main idea was to just talk and see what we talk about. My mind is typically blank up until that point and then it will usually find questions to ask. If you wish to not talk, that’s fine I understand. It’s not like I exactly gave a solid answer.
After thinking about it for a bit…
Just get to know you I guess. I’m interested in the human brain. I like it even more knowing that each one is different. At the very least just learn about your favorite color/food/ animal, basic things really.
That’s a good broad sketch. It’s all good. You are looking for the right things I would say. If you would send an email to *.com and title it something like It’ll Be Ok so it can’t go down the spam filter that should be fine. It could be 24 hours by the time I can get on it but yes it could good to share ideas.
After tomorrow I plan to edit out my email address to try and keep the bots off of it, but if you miss it I could give it again.