decisions

tell someone = burden someone, make them frustrated with me, I become vulnerable and unlikable = wrong

don’t tell someone = bottle it up until I kill myself = wrong

talk about it anonymously = no relief + vulnerability = wrong

kill myself = no more of this endless cycle of mistakes = maybe right, but slightly inconvenient for certain living people

fix myself = impossible, make no reasonable progress, hurt so many people on the way = wrong

run away = coward, escape all the people I’ve hurt, start over and fuck it up again or just kill myself = solid outcome