Just met with my pill lady for the 1st time. Had to tell her what meds ive been on over the years and what all ive abused. Might need to get my stuff injected because i have a habit of abusing things when im mad or stressed out. She had me do a swab test that can detect what kind of meds would most suit me for my disorder. Which is crazy cuz apparently its been around for years but this is the 1st time ive heard of it cuz my docs used to experiment on me with numerous meds from 7yrs-20yrs. Been 14yrs without meds.
She told me i seem to be doing fine the yrs i went without and im like no not really, ive been self medicating and hurting myself and my paranoia prevents me from doing alot of things. The only reason i even sought help after all this time was because i have nothin to lose and ive had all this down time and since human services are on my a** i was kinda forced into takin care of my mental health. Not gonna lie this docs are way nicer and better than most docs ive seen in the past. So im greatful for that. People who are relaxed and welcoming are what people need esp in these cases. Im already tense and gettin a headaches with my daily battle, its just a relief when outside people dont add more to it.
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I’m glad you’re back on meds, I really hope it works out for you this time and that you feel better!