Had a similar mindset for a number of years, but then I matured a bit more. Got a few more notches on my belt. A few more harsh lessons.
Provided I can compartmentalise and not let my emotions always run the show; I reckon I can be with someone. In a way that benefits us both. Without letting my feels derail everything like they always have.
…part of me still secretly wants to hide up in the mountains on my own, but that’s another story.
Im probably better off also because Im now in another relationship and its all becoming so complicated and screwed up. I don’t understand why it all has to be so hard and miserable to get to a place where two people can just be happy together. In this society today there are many different obstacles we must face to be in any sort of good decent relationship. I gave up long ago but feel into this relationship thinking finally this is gonna be good. Well its not turning out so good because its yet another damned if I do and damned if I don’t situation I can’t win in. Nothing is simple anymore. I have no answers as to why two people can’t make a life work anymore without a thousand different things and people getting in the way.
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Had a similar mindset for a number of years, but then I matured a bit more. Got a few more notches on my belt. A few more harsh lessons.
Provided I can compartmentalise and not let my emotions always run the show; I reckon I can be with someone. In a way that benefits us both. Without letting my feels derail everything like they always have.
…part of me still secretly wants to hide up in the mountains on my own, but that’s another story.
Im probably better off also because Im now in another relationship and its all becoming so complicated and screwed up. I don’t understand why it all has to be so hard and miserable to get to a place where two people can just be happy together. In this society today there are many different obstacles we must face to be in any sort of good decent relationship. I gave up long ago but feel into this relationship thinking finally this is gonna be good. Well its not turning out so good because its yet another damned if I do and damned if I don’t situation I can’t win in. Nothing is simple anymore. I have no answers as to why two people can’t make a life work anymore without a thousand different things and people getting in the way.
with my disorders its just easier