Urges

The temporary release from pain is like a drug, isn’t it ? I mean the feeling, you will want it every time again, like a drug. And it won’t even help after all, I know, I tried too. Sometimes I bursted my fist at the wall as well. It helped for a mere moment. Yet, when you have people who care about you, it sounds harsh but you hurt them as well. Please don’t do it, it not for them, don’t do it for yourself. I managed to release these bad habits by simply being angry at my self for it, and pointing that anger in the right direction got me through it. Now my anger serves me, not always in the best way, I mean it can drag me down at times, but it also provides me with strength when I need it. In a twisted way. There are so many better ways of releasing those feelings, ways that work in a constructive way.