4 “attempts”

I want to be dead right now. I should be dead right now.

I was going to jump….. Someone came along.

I was going to hang myself…… But each time got interrupted and had to undo the knot.

This was another one of those mornings. I should be dead right now. I don’t want to be alive. I don’t want to keep doing this.

It feels like everyone is behind me pushing while my feet are dug in and I’m just trying to make it stop.