i’m done. i’m so unbelievably and inexplicably done. everywhere i turn i’ve got people telling me what’s wrong with me. i know i’m cold. i know i’m detached. i know i’d rather saw my own leg off than trust someone and i know i’m fucking mentally ill. so fucking what? people try to fix me left and right but there’s nothing to fucking fix. “this isn’t who you are” how the fuck would you know who i am? how the fuck would you know what i have going on inside my head? i am who i am. this is who i am. i’m never gonna be who i was. and the more people that ask me what my problem is or tell me how i was a better person 5 years ago the more i wanna pull the fucking trigger. i’m just so fucking done
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I recently had this exact same experience, where someone tried to tell me “this isn’t who you are”, and I thought, “how tf do you know?!”
You are who you believe you are not who others think you are! People will constantly try to make sure everyone is the same but we’re not. Of course you’re different than you were 5 years ago, you’ve experienced different things and changed as a person because that’s what happens when years go by. Maybe in another five years you’ll be different from who you are now, who knows, but I know I’d sure like to find out. Either way, everyone has a beautiful person inside them, but like a flower you only bloom now and again and sometimes other people make your pedals fall out or there isn’t enough nutrients to grow out of the ground but you’re still a flower even when you’re not blooming or if your roots have began to release from the ground and you’re barely holding on. Idk, I probably just sound dumb
I’m assuming that you have friends and family that care about you. Just tell them you need your space and time to work out your feelings and not to worry.
We all need a break from others from time to time. At the same time it’s good to keep people in your life that are supportive/helpful. And ofc if they’re toxic then you should get rid of them.