I’m sorry to everyone who I’ve ever let down. Eighteen years of my bullshit. All of it is for nothing.
I’m sorry to Branson, I’m sorry to Blake, to my mother, to my father, brother, biological father, everyone. I’m so sorry for ever being born.
My whole life has been one huge waste. I became an addict at age 14. I blew my parents’ money ever since on drugs, sex… everything. I’m ready to leave.
There is nothing good about me. Nothing. I’m sorry that I ever bothered attempting to live. I’m sorry that I decided that this was the time to ever do anything. I/m sorry for the college money I blew. I’m sorry for the money wasted on rehab. I’m sorry for the money spent on sober living. I’m sorry for all those times they drove to pick me up in the middle night. I’m sorry for overdosing in front of them. I promise that next time, nobody will know until there’s nothing more to be done.
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It’s not your fault that you are an addict. You didn’t choose to be. You are doing the best you can. Keep doing the best you can.
Love,
i
You can fight this and I hope you’re ok out there
It’s been a year. I don’t know if you’re still here. But there’s a future. Whether you like it or not. Addiction doesn’t mean the end. Saying sorry doesn’t change addiction or the past. I’m here to let you know that there is a future for you in the end. It doesn’t have to be death. Your life experience doesn’t amount to failure. There will always be a new will to live, I just hope you can hold on to reach it.