I just wish my mom would try to understand my emotional pain. I wish she would support me emotionally. I wish she would tell me she loves me. I wish she wouldn't put me down. I wish she wouldn't judge me. I wish she could see the hurt she causes me. I wish I could hate her. I wish and wish and wish for the impossible when it comes to her. I know full well she isn't the type of person I wish she could be. I know she doesn't do it on purpose, it's more like she's blunt and doesn't have a filter when speaking. But what hurts the most is that I have tried to communicate with her, to try and get her to understand me, but it's like talking to a wall. It is so frustrating it makes me wish I could do the unthinkable and show her just how much pain her ignorance causes me. If only. . . too bad I just can't. My belief in God keeps me from taking that plunge I so desperately wish I could do. I can only keep treading forward with my life, trying to make the best of it.
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sometimes family doesn’t work for u. u can’t keep wanting them to be something they’re not. stop thinking about them. grow as a person. become self sufficient. make new friends and new family.
family sometimes understands least of all. Look for people willing to be understood, they will understand you much better. It would appear your mom has some scars of her own, and they limit her expression.
well today I shared my mental problems with my mom. She got mad and hit me with an iron cooker in back of my head.