Great! i did it again! and I’m sorry. I know i promised that i would do it… But you don’t understand how hard i tried to hold back. But you cant just stop something your addicted to! Now i look at my wrists and think ‘I’m just going to get scolded’ so i wanted to say goodbye… and… I’m sorry i failed you once again, Jun. I always let you down! How many times have a promised that i wouldn’t do it? you’ve lost count, haven’t you? yeah well, i have too. Have a good life, Jun. I’m sure it will be a lot better now that i wont be in it, right? now that you finally aren’t constantly looking over your shoulder to make sure I’m okay or to make sure i don’t do anything to myself. Thank you for that i guess.
Although we were only friends, i liked you. like liked you. More than a friend… I know its stupid, but if you somehow come across this, please know that i always knew you hated me. That you were just pretending. You were literally the only one who “cared.”
I don’t know if I’m going to regret this but i do know that you will finally be happy. Tell your dad i said Good luck with the business! Even though he never talked to me and completely ignored me when i said hello or good ______ (morning, evening, afternoon) And tell him i really was sorry for spilling my ice tea on his sweater yesterday when i was coming around the corner. He seemed really annoyed and angry with me…
Your sister, tell her i said that i never hated her and i wasn’t the one who stole her pillow case which is really weird. who would steal a pillow case? anyway, tell her that.
Make sure to tall all of our classmates that i understand why they hated me now. Goodbye.
Yours sincerely, Meiya.