FUCKING DAMN ITTTTTT!!!!!! I FOUND THE ONE THING, ONE BELIEF, A PRACTICE THAT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD, LIKE I ACOMPLISH SOMEHING WHENEVER I DO SOMETHING RELATED TO IT RIGHT???!!? WELL GUESS WHAT APPARENTLY I CAN’T HAVE THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I’M ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING. WHO FUCKING CARES IF IT’S NOT REAL. IT FUCKING MAKES ME HAPPY!!!! IS THAT REALLY BOTHERING YOU, A RANDOM ASS PERSON ONLINE???!??! CAN’T I JUST FUCKING HAVE FUN???? LOOK WHAT YOU DID! NOW I’M DOUBTING THE EXISTANCE OF WHAT I PRACTICE! ISN’T THAT FUCKING PECULIAR!!!! IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED?? WAS THIS YOUR GOAL??? TO CONVINCE ME IT’S NOT REAL?? WHY???? SO I CAN’T FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF? SO I CAN’T ENJOY DOING IT? SO I CAN’T FUCKING HAVE FUN!?!?!?!?!
WELL CONGRATS!!!! NOW MY PRACTICE COMES WITH EXTRA DOUBT, IMPOSTOR SYNDROME AND SHAME!!!! ARE YOU FINALLY SATISFIED?!??!? YOU FUCKING PROUD OF YOURSELF? WELL YOU DID GREAT! CONGRATS! YOU’VE MADE A PERSON’S DAY SO MUCH BETTER!
Ah, this felt good to type. For context, I’ve been a part of a belief group for like a year now, it started out amazingly. I felt like I was doing so much, yeah, I mean like magickal stuff. Sigh, don’t mention it. I know what you’re gonna say but fr, before you do just think about letting me enjoy it. So I just go online and I see the group getting absolutely fucking hated on. I really don’t understand why these ppl do this. I go and defend our group with arguments that actually make sense rather than “you look insane if you actually think ________ or _____________ works/is real” etc. etc. I really don’t understand. We never use our stuff to hurt others, we use it for self improvement, it makes us happy. We’re really not hurting anyone, this is all about positivity and you took it away from me. So what if it’s apparently wrong in your religion? It’s my religion, you shouldn’t intervene. For real. I’ve been plastered with so many “proofs it’s bullshit” that it just makes me wanna give up. I haven’t practiced in so long and it makes me feel bad too, lately I’ve been getting worse and honestly doing these things always brings me back into the mood but now I just don’t have the energy, cause why do it if it’s not real? Why would ______ be real? I’m obviously insane, right? Sigh. I wish we could stop the hate in the world. I think it would be a better place for everyone but at the same time it’s impossible.
If earth was one country, soon many tiny countries would break out because they didn’t agree with the world country and decided to rebel. That’s just human nature. It kinda saddens me. Human nature is also to look down on others to feel better about ourselves. I don’t blame us.
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Ugh I feel so childlish for this post, it’s in caps and shit. It just felt like I needed to write it. Screw it, yeah, it’s not a big deal. Whatever to be honest, I just said what I wanted to say.
Life is short. And in a world/existence that only has the meaning and purpose that you prescribe to it, I say that as long as you aren’t impeding upon the lives of others, anything that brings you joy in this life is perfectly fine. Live your life and do YOU.
That’s true, it’s a shame it’s so hard to fully believe what I do again 🙁
You mention magick. Wiccan by chance?
I’m wiccan and yeah it can be an eye roll fest. No we don’t fly brooms! We spiritually and emotionally help. The ignorance on the subject is just upsetting.
So what if they don’t believe, that doesn’t mean you don’t have to believe. Not everyone believes in Christianity or any of those other religions but people still believe them.
My personal beliefs is that everyone is their own god. You can dispute about my beliefs but you can’t tell me you don’t make your own choices. As far as magick, OF COURSE I BELIEVE IT!!! It’s like I said, we aren’t flying brooms, to believe that is a little silly, but to believe that my love and caring for someone doesn’t make it better is a lie. All good things are made with love. It’s not the “magick” but the magick is your love. You have a passion for what you’re doing and you care about it.
Try to not let anyone convince you that your beliefs are wrong as long as no one’s getting hurt.
” an’ it hurt none, do what ye will” 🙂
Not really, I do magick but I’m not wiccan, my religion is kinda complicated. Problem is I’ve pretty much begun to doubt all the things I do, even if they make me happy. I’m starting to think “maybe I’m just making a fool of myself, they were all right.” . I can’t return to how it was before, it really sucks cause practicing is one of the not very many things that make me feel acomplished. Thanks to judgemental people that part of my life is dissapearing as well.
Also it’s not that they don’t believe, they go out of their way to shame me for it and explain how it’s stupid and makes no sense. Unfortunately it works on me…
If you’re not hurting anyone and it amuses you, then do it and have fun.
I’m assuming by ‘magic’ you’re not referring to being a magician or illusionist, but rather causing things to happen which defies science.
I’ve never seen any actual documented example of real magic. That is someone doing something that defies a scientific explanation such as flying on a broom, or turning water into wine, etc.
That could be the reason some people are very skeptical. I’m assuming your ‘religion’ also provides you with friendship and giving you a sense of community.
If however you truly believe that magic is ‘real’ then you could be setting yourself up for disappointment.
If it was true-then we’d have schools set up for magic and science would be trying to explain it.
Unfortunately I’ve never seen any example of anything existing outside of science. It’s always best to be invested in the real world.
No offense but this was probably the worst thing you could’ve said here but I don’t mind. And no, the magic isn’t flying on a broom. It’s complicated and I don’t feel like writing undescriptive paragraphs but basically it’s not that.