A lot has happened. I was sick for a week, right when I was supposed to start a program from Jobcenter. Had to get a medical certificate (I hope it’s called that, sorry non-english speaker) from my doctor, who of course was on vacation.
Then on Monday showing up, they forgot to do a Corona Test, which is mandatory there, which obviously I didn’t know. And they did it after I had been there for 3 hours. It was positive. They basically asked me to leave the premises and I had to wait really long until someone came down to talk to me. They gave me testing-kits for free, which btw, the ones I didn’t use, I now have to return. They didn’t even bring down my bag at first…
Funny, I was so afraid of this illness and now it wasn’t even that bad. I’m asthmatic so I guess the coughing didn’t go away yet. But still – now I can be more relaxed about having to wear a mask or be afraid to be too close to someone. Fun fact: I caught it a week before my second vaccination. So… Having missed 2 weeks they weren’t happy. I even got a sort of nasty E-mail from them, calling me out, that I’d lose the spot if I don’t show up. I was in the right, another doctor gave me everything I needed.
I really think the people who work there are lighthearted and kind. However from only being there 4 times, I have seen their way of organizing and it’s HORRIBLE.! Even the other participants randomly talked smack behind their backs in all forms. And actually after having walked my a$$ off the past week, because the road is real long, doing something for the first time in years, they still find some ways not to be happy with my attendance.
It was told to me explicitly, that I could start off with having to come 3 days a week. I have had this information straight from the “boss” for weeks now and suddenly that isn’t true. I would’ve never accepted and signed the contract, if I had known it was going to be like that. I had declined an offer right before this one, about another program just because of that reason.
Many people, especially workers will not understand, but it takes an immense amount of energy for me to do any task basically or show up somewhere, especially on time. I haven’t bought groceries alone in many years and I’m still young.!! I have developed insomnia for some reason and I showed up there with 1-4 hours of sleep, but I still freaking went and did my “work”.
I am currently in the creative crafting shop. The art teachers/staff even praised my creative sense. The first task I did.. I did way too much and had to redo it the next day, despite them loving my art. I was really proud of myself having done all that and now I am really wiped. I am a person with a lot of doctors appointments and just having these 2 days off a week, will help me get those in order also. They can take up, up to 3 hours a day.
There’s a field trip planned every Friday and they told me, that they go to a museum, bowling or even go on a walk with freaking goats in forests.!!! I mean I would’ve totally went if it was that, but tomorrow it’s some weird breathing class. I mean, I do my own yoga and all but these classes together especially having to breathe, somehow they stress me tf out haha.
I have so many things going on and this hit me like a train. They didn’t even bother to talk to me about it personally, not even in an E-Mail, it was a bloody SMS.! I just found the place and now I am very conflicted about these people’s interest. This place was made for anyone who struggles with mental or physical health problems and even drug abuse etc., so frankly I feel like they don’t keep their word.
I will call them tomorrow and hopefully can clear this up. I don’t care for a contract, if they chose to be unclear. Mind so, a lot of people don’t even show up, despite Jobcenter cutting their finances short, if they do that. I went there today and only 1 out of 7 members showed up. Says a lot about them.