It sounds strange I guess, but I want to cry. But I can’t. Don’t know why. I feel like sh¡t and I feel like its eating me alive inside. I cant take this. I don’t even think I can eat, which should be fine. I wish I could’ve stayed home today. I don’t ever want to get out of bed again.
I can’t find anything to live for. Or anyone. I’m so lonely. I can’t talk to anyone. I don’t want to bother anyone, but I don’t like this either.
I know I’m being stupid. There’s nowhere for me to go right now. So I’m just rambling here.
I’m such a waste of time. Schools gonna start, and I’ll get through it (maybe) as a disappointment. Sure, I can “change it/get it together/do something different” or whatever people say (?) but I’ll just fall back to where I am, maybe further. I’m not trying to be an asshole, I can’t explain myself very well.
I know I’m weak for not being able to handle all these thoughts/feelings better.
I’m weak and worthless. Unlovable. I brought this upon myself I suppose. What do I do? I don’t even know.
Everything I do is a waste. I just wanted to stay in bed today man… too bad I guess. I just wanna die.
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When I’m at rock-bottom-tired-out-of-my-mind, I sit down and pray to my imaginary friend God. By the end of it I’m crying. Works out.
Fair enough. Can’t hurt to try it.
i thought this was a post I wrote on some other account i lost the password to.