I had a suicide attempt last year. The boyfriend I lived with had recently dumped me and I didnt take it so well. A week after our breakup I woke up one morning and while in the shower decided I wanted to die. I just couldent figure out how I was gonna do it till it hit me. Im gonna go buy a gun and shoot myself. I purchased a gun and drove to my ex boyfriends house and he was just pulling out the driveway, thankfully he was there because I wanted him to see me die. He walked up to my car and told me to leave but I said I have something for you, something you’ve always wanted. Then I aked him he cared whether I lived or died and he said he didnt care either way at this point so I shot myself in the stomache. I passed out from the pain and woke up on the lawn with him holding my stomache and back. The next thing I remember is the ambulance ride and then woke up 2 weeks later after 3 stomache surgerys. I had to re learn how to talk and walk. I was very lucky because im a normal 28 yr old female now without any lasting effects from that. Ive been through therapy and medication but nothing seems to help. I still think about dying everyday. But the problem is I should of died, and I messed that up to. I cant live, I cant die
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hey i’ll be here if you want to talk i check them daily so dont hesistate. (silly.snowball@yahoo.com) come and talk to me any time.
i think you are incredible.
surely God wants you to live. please, please, please, let me try to help you. i am not Jesus but i’m friends with Him, and He takes care of me. He keeps me from wanting to kill myself. it doesn’t surprise me that medication and therapy don’t work, because they really don’t. nothing in this world will make you happy, even if your own dreams came true you’d eventually have other dreams. please let me try to help you, i’m desperate, i am. please let me try.
please read my post here: http://suicideproject.org/2009/12/please-read-2/