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I wish I was a good as she thinks I am. I worried about them and stressed out about everything. I’m hungry but I can’t let myself eat. I’d probably just puke it back up anyway. Shes the only reason I’m alive rn. Theres stuff going on in their life that makes me worry about them in turn. They’re already asleep, and I’m not gonna bother them. I’m overwhelmed with a lot right now. It’d be so much easier to just sink into this bed never to come out again, but it isnt like that. Life isnt fair, but it’s something I gotta get over I guess. I have a plan to fall back on if it gets bad enough I guess. I’m tired. Maybe I should go get some sleep too. I hate the person I am. A weed like creature, killing off all the beautiful things in the field. That’s me. I guess I deserve whatever’s thrown at me in this shitty world. I wish I didnt exist right now.