Medicated

I don’t fucking know anymore. Like when I first started antidepressants I felt nothing change. Couple months in I am doing fucking great. Best shape of my life! Then the last month has been so weird. So emotional. So unpredictable. My behavior is so unlike me these days, I am having trouble having the motivation I used to have.  I don’t know what type of behavior is me anymore or how I’m supposed to be. If I act out I want to  just blame the medication but I was so good not that long ago. What the fuck changed? I hate this and I hate me. I don’t like being medicated and then people feel like they need to be so delicate with me. Fuck all that.