Man, if linking whatever new conflict appears in my life with something I already wrote was a monatizable skill…. I’d be capable of earning money, ha.
there are things I can’t fix though, and that’s the current theme of my life. I wrote the devil outlet bit earlier…. and I still stand by it. It’s just, does anyone else get those posts about not cluttering up the site? It feels like it’s important to the site admins, and so in the interest of conserving the public resource of front page space, sometimes I just add to an existing post.
Compared with the devil outlet though, there are somethings I question whether anyone can fix, like certain friendships. I didn’t do anything this time, literally everyone involved agrees, but I might have lost a friend group. I’m not even fully emotionally engaging with it…… because I can’t fix it. My wife got in a fight with one of the central people, who took it personally and would not take an apology, so that entire friend group is shunning us.
For as often as I regret that humans are replaceable, sometimes it’s a good thing, right now is one of those times. I’m so good at making friends……… I hate bragging, and maybe it’s a bad thing? Point being, people in my life leave a lot, so getting over rejection is something I have a process for. That’s probably better, since it centers on my trauma and not my relative ability.
so at this point someone announces they’re leaving my life…. it’s just like “bye! Had fun while you were here, but bye!”
For someone to be a loss I’d regret…. they’d need to invest a decade or two of being really vital to my life… which would take some creative being useful that most people aren’t capable of…. or maybe they ARE capable, they’ve never demonstrated such capability.
anyway, some people are beyond fixing, because they aren’t willing. Rather like;
The Devil Outlet
which is funny, because I don’t particularly believe in the devil…. there’s enough evil and stupidity in regular human beings…like this outlet!
This specific outlet is the one my window air unit in my bedroom has been plugged into…. and a few days ago the outlet burned itself up. See, devil outlet, literally the outlet from hell
so then I had to rewire the plug, and that temporarily got me AC back….. but then earlier today that plug burnt up…. probably faulty wiring on my part, I was only ever an apprentice electrician
So now I’m trying to rewire the outlet. We have a new AC unit, and if I can make it safe…… but none of the breakers in my box are correctly labeled, and that’s only the beginning of the hell of this situation.
I finally get the burnt and shorting outlet off….. and it has four wires and they’re all black…..
Normal circuit is supposed to be three wires, hot, neutral, ground…. this one has no apparent ground, which is WHY it burned. but so I have a hot and a neutral, as well as two that pass that to the rest of the outlets on the circuit….. which means now I’m down a minimum of three outlets, and I’m out of my depth.
It’s 1 AM right now…. and I’m trying to figure out this sleep thing minus AC……..
This is also a particularly devilish state, perhaps that explains all the fundamentalists…. it’s hot and humid most of the time… in summer it takes that heat to a truly unhealthy and deadly level. So, fun.
I’m really pissed, and really tired, and really depressed.