If I could time travel, both forwards and backwards, my life would be so different. I could go back and not do some things that lead me here, I could go forward and see what changes would actually have made a positive difference. Granted, everything is moot if EVERYONE could also time travel, but shit, if I could go back in time and not have made the decisions that lead me to this predicament…
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given how dissappointing existence has been thus far, I think it’s reasonable to assume that if time travel was possible…. it wouldn’t be particularly useful. Causality would refuse to budge, via some corrective measure…. and so traveling to the past you’d find yourself unable to change it…. and rather it would renew some terrible and traumatic memories.
likewise, travel to the future would either keep helpful information out of reach, or one would find when back in the present the information somehow rendered useless
though I may feel this way, because I am uniquely gifted, I’m in the least awful time of my life right now. Any time prior, it was more hopeless, I was more gullible. To quote Gamora from Guardians of the Galaxy; “Whatever nightmares the future holds are dreams compared to what’s behind me.”
but I also think that foreknowledge would take some of the real pleasure out of life. Until a moment arrives, you can suppose it’ll be whatever you like, good, bad, whatever. The moment it does, the moment the mystery is dispersed…. even if it is good, you’ll have expected it and that’d ruin whatever joy it might’ve brought.
The one thing I think about in time travel is I’d like to go back and give my ancestors some rather pointed investment advice…. but even that might ruin everything. If I had the money to leave this godforsaken city and state, I might’ve never met my wife, or my friends.
In short, I doubt that given my track record with being reasonably well informed and still reaching this point, I doubt more information is the solution. Most often when I look at my failures, I failed to listen to those older and wiser than I. That’s not correctable.
Like you said- you are speaking from YOUR life’s perspective. So for YOU, time travel isn’t worth it, and would lead you to losing things you wouldn’t want to lose.
Suppose you were a girl, and you were raped. You wouldn’t go back and change that so it didn’t happen?
Suppose you were hit by a car, and it lead to your life being completely destroyed. You wouldn’t go back and change it so you’re not in that state, in that city, on that block?
Both those situations would not have happened if I hadn’t moved to this particular state, into a particular apt. All that needed correcting is to just not move there. Easy enough to change via time travel.
Even if YOU wouldn’t, *I* would.
We all have our own level of misery. Some of us are miserable enough to either kill ourselves or not that it’s possible, but if it were, to time travel and change everything so we wouldn’t wind up where we are now.
You live a “comfortable” life- by that I don’t mean you have everything, I mean you are comfortable enough with your life that you won’t change things bc then you’ll lose the things you do like/care about. You have a wife, friends, a decent house, a dog, creature comforts, etc. You have your health. On the whole, you see if anything got altered, you wouldn’t have any of that.
I HAVE NOTHING LEFT TO LOSE.
I’ve already lost EVERY. FUCKING. THING.
I fucking hate this fucking world.
I hate every single thing in this fucking world.
I want the world to burn, that’s how much I hate it.
My health is declining. Every day I battle a losing battle with fungus. And that’s not counting all my other health issues. I have lost all my possessions, the few “nice” things that made my life comfortable.
I live in a shit room and I have a shit neighbor that attacks me every fucking day and night with his fucking vibrations/bass. I’ve got literally nothing but a bed here.
My fungus is growing uncontrollably here and it wouldn’t have happened if I never moved here.
So yes, if I could go back in time and tell myself not to move here, or to the other apt, then yes, I would.
I would go back further into childhood if I could- bc that’s where most of my abuse came from- but in that case, I’m not sure how to go about changing it bc that’s not so easy to solve. It’s not as easy as “don’t move to this apt in this city.”
I’m at the worst time in my life. And that’s saying a lot considering all the shit I’ve gone through.
I’ve had enough of this shit. All I see is misery on top of misery with no end in sight.